I love the concurrency problem framing. My thoughts can be jumbled like this “what did this person think of me doing that, am I doing enough here, this person seems to be doing so much better than me at that. I’m doing a bad job raising my son. He won’t turn out and I’ll have failed him. Why am I such a failure.” These thoughts appear like arrows out of the darkness meant to take me down. Pray without ceasing. Abide in His love. Relationship with God seems to be concurrency solution: a father, one who loves us unconditionally and wants to bless us accordingly is the ordering principle. Another metaphor is a shield. Abba, thank you for loving me and for answering my prayers. Order my thoughts. Light of the world shine on me and light my path. I need you. Amen.
My experience is that the more rest in that state of trust, absolute trust, the better everything in my life goes. All my trouble comes to me from imagining have I have to be in control of my whole life, rather than merely my attitude moment to moment.
I love this, thank you. You have a gift for taking my own intuitions and making them explicit.
I love the concurrency problem framing. My thoughts can be jumbled like this “what did this person think of me doing that, am I doing enough here, this person seems to be doing so much better than me at that. I’m doing a bad job raising my son. He won’t turn out and I’ll have failed him. Why am I such a failure.” These thoughts appear like arrows out of the darkness meant to take me down. Pray without ceasing. Abide in His love. Relationship with God seems to be concurrency solution: a father, one who loves us unconditionally and wants to bless us accordingly is the ordering principle. Another metaphor is a shield. Abba, thank you for loving me and for answering my prayers. Order my thoughts. Light of the world shine on me and light my path. I need you. Amen.
My experience is that the more rest in that state of trust, absolute trust, the better everything in my life goes. All my trouble comes to me from imagining have I have to be in control of my whole life, rather than merely my attitude moment to moment.
Yes, Amen, very well put.